The Marionette's Liberation

[cuddlytedi]

 

... when the marionette was lost she found him., when he left., she longs., hoped that someday she could tell him how much he meant to her., wished she would be given a second chance to confess how much she loved him.,

years went by., spring, summer, autumn and winter., she waited., then out of nowhere he returned., with a single "hi" and "how has it been??".,

a question that the marionette could not answer., a reply greeting that brought both confusion and answer to her once longing heart.,

"how has it been???"., how was she??!!!., then or now???!!., what has change and what remain???!!!!.,

remain???!!., she still feels dearly for him., he is still and will always be special to her., the person who was sent at the time she was lost and doesn't believe in Love.,

change??!!!., her feelings for him., perhaps the long years of longing and waiting change her heart., the her who risked then would not attempt to risk now., her illusion of him faded the day he returned.,

she might have fell then but like a bubble those years of longing and waiting that made her weave fantasies and what could be's bursts the day he return.,

now the marionette is free., free from that one sided admiration that lasted for so long., but freedom has a price., that freedom is making her feel lost again.,

now she has nothing to hold on to., nothing to hope for., nothing to long for., no dream to weave., no what if's and if only.,

walking in this unknown path as always., but feels a bit different because for now there is no memories of "Sunlight In My Closet" to rest her weary heart.,