SEASONS by cuddlytedi

on a cold mid autumn, love blossomed.,

along with those leaves that surrounded me.,

my heart also helplessly fell.,

though from outside only gloominess is seen.,

but inside this heart of mine.,

the bright, warm, summer sun can be felt.,

with one smile and a caring touch.,

you melt the winter snow that wrapped me.,

the happiness can't be contained.,

it just freely flows from day to day.,

pouring rain may come.,

from time to time.,

and wet my eyes with sadness.,

but i will never be afraid.,

for i know, i have an umbrella.,

to shelter me from being drench.,

the promise of forever is far from reach.,

but as long as you're here by my side.,

i do honestly believe.,

that i'm one step closer to my dream.,

with all of these, i can finally say.,

i know what love is.,

Laughter by Cuddlytedi

God must have heard my plead
Coz He sent you to me
When i'm badly in need
A friend to hold on to
You came at the right time
Like a warm summer breeze
The pain i felt was ease
With your gift of laughter
My world is much brighter
The future is much clearer
Than what i had before

My past can't be undo
But when you took my hand
And accept me as me
All the hurt starts to mend
I then began to leave
The doubts and fears i have
You have then given me
A new reason to live

You share your life with me
Your joy, triumph and pain
I then began to see
The true person within
And now I can't help it
It felt like I'm fallen
So deeply into you
But my mind won't admit
The love my heart had felt
I let it fade again
So friendship would remain

But Fate has Its own way
She's telling you to leave
And slowly my heart melt
Though i want you to stay
My conscience refuse to
Because you belong there
In a place far from me

My breeze turns to abyss
Now my heart starts to miss
The smile i used to see
But now all i could do
Is to hope you'd return
To wipe my eyes in tears
The days began to turn
But still you're not here

The only thing i prayed for
Is for our Lord to see
How lonely this life is
When you're not here with me
My angel, my laughter.,

M.I.D. by Cuddlytedi

Forever is what you gave her
A moment is all we shared.,

With her, you found your own life
And as for me, you are my life.,

She offered you everything
your future, present and past.,

While i gave you nothing
except a moment of Lust.,

Commitment is what binds you
to hold on to what you have.,

Desire between me and you
Flame that burns our love alive.,

Reality i must face
the one Truth beyond these Lies.,

In your World i have no place
Time to say my last GOODBYE.,

... Paranoid Me

in a huge crowd of familiar faces.,
i often feel so lost.,
for a girl who can read gestures and looks.,
how can one ignore those.,
every day is a struggle.,
knowing what they are thinking.,
the paranoid me takes a step back.,
the numbness turns to coldness.,
piercing deeper and deeper.,
causing wounds that can't be seen.,
slowly dying in pain and hurt.,
that can't be explain.,
and were cause unintentionally.,

... that empty seat

forever will reserve a seat for you.,
that empty seat in front of me.,
imagining and hoping someday.,
someday and somehow.
that day would come.,
that the empty seat.,
i saved for you.,
will soon be occupied.,
and will not be empty anymore.,

... bittersweet.,

i am missing the person i loved the most again.,
when the world denounces the type of preference he has.,
i just smile.,
for i loved him knowing all of those.,
for those things he lacks in their eyes.,
i willingly embraced the moment i fell for him.,
for in my eyes, those didn't make him a lesser person.,
for he is much more better than those who looked at him
differently.,