Keiquia's Marionette

[cuddlytedi]

He doesn’t have to pull my strings
For me to come to him
For he know with a single glance
I’ll be there by his side
Waiting for his command.

He doesn’t have to give me anything
nor shower me with promise
which we both know he can’t keep.
For we know from the start
where we stand in this game we’re playing,
he, the puppet master and I, his stringed-marionette.

For years we played the same old game.
He’s my only one, my master and my mentor
Though for him, I’m just one of them
One of those toys he played around
And left alone when he found a new one.

And now that he had found someone new
Who can give him much more
Than what I can offer
He left me here, in this dark closet
Alone, wounded and broken.

For months, I waited for him
To take me home, back in his loving arms
To pull my strings again and give me life.
But he never came.

Every day’s the same
I watched the sun sets
With no signs of hope
And a tear in my heart.

But yesterday is different
Someone came and open the door
share with me his smile
and offer me his hand
which allow the sun
to shine again in my life.

We played all day and night
In each other’s tune
We share a dance
We hope to last a lifetime.

It felt like I found
Not just an instant playmate
But also my soul mate
Who will always be there.

I then began to smile again,
start picking up the pieces
and building my life again
which was longed roped.
But I hoped to soon

Today my master returns
Pulling my strings again
Leading me to be there
There by his side

I’m now torn into two
To return to my puppet master
Who made me who I am today,
who first shown me my worth
but also the one who left me alone
and make me felt like trash

he who I loved
and perhaps loved me too
but could not commit to me
for he has given his oath
to someone else before me

Or rather to stay
With my playmate
Who make me believe in love again
Who allow the sun shine in my life
And who I started to love

But like the puppet master
He can never be mine
for he only sees me as a friend
And perhaps even less
For he don’t know
How I truly feel for him.

Now I must decide between two paths
To forever be Keiquia’s marionette
Forever trap in his strings
Or to take a risk with a playmate
Who can never be mine.

A situation where I can find no comfort
For neither one can give me true happiness
Neither one I can totally owned
Keep asking why fate is so cruel to me
To a simple marionette like me….